“reckless abandon” ~Blink 182
(there is no official video for this song, but this one is fun because it has Anchorman clips in it and the flashes to the band are from other videos of theirs that I know. The video is actually done rather poorly, but you get the idea)
People always think this song is about teenage carefree craziness. I think it’s adult implosion. There is a good opportunity for me to do some imploding this weekend, as my kid will be gone for the night. If I were to go, I would regret it the next day, if not sooner. The people there would encourage it, which means they aren’t really my friends, because if they were, they would know I shouldn’t be there. If they were my friends and told me to leave, I would just saunter further down the street and do the imploding there.
No, it’s good my friend offered to be my babysitter Saturday night. I’m going to need it.
I’m 37 and need to be babysat. That’s just pathetic.
Please excuse my personal endulgence. Nights are hard.
I’m too tired to even care that the formatting is so awful.
“please let me know that my one bad day will end”
“And I held your hand through all of these years. But you still have All of me”
“I want somebody to share, share the rest of my life
Share my innermost thoughts, know my intimate details
Someone who’ll stand by my side and give me support
And in return she’ll get my support
She will listen to me when I want to speak
About the world we live in and life in general
Though my views may be wrong, they may even be perverted
She’ll hear me out, and won’t easily be converted
To my way of thinking in fact she’ll often disagree
But at the end of it all she will understand me
I want somebody who cares for me passionately
With every thought and with every breath
Someone who’ll help me see things in a different light
All the things I detest I will almost like
I don’t want to be tied to anyone’s strings
I’m carefully trying to steer clear of those things
But when I’m asleep I want somebody
Who will put their arms around me, kiss me tenderly
Though things like this make me sick
In a case like this I’ll get away with it”
“Fragile
Like a baby in your arms
Be gentle with me
I’d never willingly
Do you harm
Apologies
Are all you seem to get from me
But just like a child
You make me smile
When you care for me
And you know
It’s a question of lust
It’s a question of trust
It’s a question of not letting
What we’ve built up
Crumble to dust
It is all of these things and more
That keep us together
Independence
Is still important for us though (we realise)
It’s easy to make
The stupid mistake
Of letting go (do you know what I mean)
My weaknesses
You know each and every one (it frightens me)
But I need to drink
More than you seem to think
Before I’m anyone’s
And you know
It’s a question of lust
It’s a question of trust
It’s a question of not letting
What we’ve built up
Crumble to dust
It is all of these things and more
That keep us together
Kiss me goodbye
When I’m on my own
But you know that I’d
Rather be home”
